Toves Blogg!

läääs även om ni inte "planerar" att börja skada er, asså man förstår vilket beroende det blir ! är glad att jag nästan tagit mig ur det! (kan va lite flummigt åså men bla bla, man fattar ^^)
´Before you cut, think of this

you will find the blood and pain release addictive

even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily

they will get deeper, they will scar, they will take sometimes months to heal, and years for the scars to fade.

Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame.

Even if you are the most honest person ever to live, you will find yourself lying to the people you love.

Be prepared to get so out of control you fear next cut because you don't know how bad it will be.

Just wait for 10 cuts turn into 100..be prepared for your entire life to revolve around thinking about cutting

and covering up cutting.

wait till that day you cut "to deep" and you freak ot cause the blood won't stop and you will feel yourself shaking all over.

the better you get at treating your cuts, the deeper they get.

be prepared to buy new wardrobe, longsleeve shirts in summer colors, bracelets, wristbands, gloves..

you will start looking at everyone in a different way..scanning their bodies for any signs on self injury, just

hoping that you might meet someone like you so you don't feel so terribly alone. yuo wont even think about

as your eyes scan their wrists and arms just hoping thet will be like you, but they are not.

you will see their clean arms and feel terribly ashamed and alone.

you will always have to wash your laundry in private so no one sees the blood stains on your clothes and

towels.. you won't be able to make it through a day without cutting. next hting you know you are in a public bathroom somewhere breaking open a scab with a sewing needle that you keep in wallet for emergancies.

when you get really desperate , anything will be cutting tool..scissors, car keys, needles, paperclip, even

a pen.

doesn't matter what it is if you need to cut, you will find something,.

you will become an expert on your body as you destroy it carefully, you will dream about cutting and being exposed.

it will hunt you day and night and take over your life. You will wish you never made that first cut cause while